Daughter, Sister, Mother...& Friend.

Do Schools Kill Creativity!

2011-08-23T22:53:00.000-05:00

All Kids have tremendous talent and we squander it.
Kids will take a chance.
Kids are not frightened to be wrong.
If you are not prepared to be wrong you will never come up with anything original.
Stigmatize things by mistake?????
Picasso~ Said all kids are born artists they are educated out of creativity.
Professors live in their heads.
Education leans on idea of academic ability.
Intelligence is dynamic, distinct.
Creativity is a process of having original ideas that have value.

Women are better at multitasking.
If a man speak his mind in a forest and no one hears it, is it still wrong.
My Job is to help my kids make something of their future.
There are plenty of videos out there interesting stuff.

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Best life now!!

2011-01-02T23:34:00.001-06:00

2011 start leaving my best life and my kids best life.

I have been bad example for my children. I just bungle through life. How can I expect my kids to be successful in life when I am not giving them the tools that they need. I want to be a better parent and to be a good example for them. I want to be more focused and finish this journey that I am on. God has to be the head of my household, he is the father to my kids and my husband, he will lead me and I will follow . I would like to be a good mom, daughter, sister, student, employee and friend. To lead a life that will be an example to others around me. I am tired of living in this hurricane of a life that I have been creating myself. I need to be productive and of sound mind in order to be successful. God you know my heart, and my needs and desires, please guide me in the right path. I love you God thank you for the life that you have given me thus far.

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Extreme Makeover Needed

2010-07-12T02:49:00.003-05:00

07/12/2010 1:25 am
Mavhu Paula Matsikidze

TOTAL Makeover ~Overhaul

Areas that need addressing

Faith, Time Management, Procrastinating, Consistency, Commitment, Discipline, Cleanliness, Organization, Character, Study Habits, Bad Habits (T.V).

My Christian walk ~ What Can I do to be a better Christian.
~ Bible Study Everyday/ Quite time and Prayer Daily
~ Ambassador for Christ
~ Being active in church
~ Unwavering faith
~ Fasting
~ Small groups

My Children ~ How can I be the best and ultimate parent
~ Discipline, Manners, Room (tidiness), Hygeine
~ Activities (Swimming, Spanish, Gymnastics, Karate, Playground, Reading)
~ Listen to my babies, teach them how to communicate
~Bedtime Routine

My Health
~ Daily Exercise, Daily Stretching (cardio, strength training)
~ Eat right daily: Fit For Life
~ Fruit till noon, Carbs and veggies (lunch), Protein and veggies, (dinner)
~ 96oz + Water, Green Tea
~ Eliminate Sugar (processed)

My Finances
~ Fix my Credit Doing it as off June 2010
~ Budget: manage money better
~ Pay bills on time

GOALS: Short Term
Be an ambassador for Christ.
Lose 100lbs or a little more between now and July 2011
Be a better mother, daughter, sister, friend, employee
Maintain a clean home
Read more books, papers~ be knowledgeable about world affairs

Long Term:
Facebook Fast for a year.
Get my Bsn by 2013
Move from Austin To a city close to the Ocean....:)

Philippians 4:13 (King James Version)

13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

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day 2

2010-06-30T22:24:00.003-05:00

250 +lbs

This is me on Day 1 of working out. I am going to work out for 30 days straight and if I do not see an improvement then I will quit. I am changing all of my bad bad habits and hoping for the best keep watching this space.

Day 2 so far so good. I have exercised already today, walk jogged for an hr did 3.4 miles, and all I have eaten so far are fruits. I had a banana, 3 strawberries, a mango and a peach up to 1 pm. I will post my lunch pictures soon, I have so much cleaning to do and it can not be avoided anymore. I did not get much cleaning done. I however am going to continue working on this because I know that the cleaner my place is the better my mind will be. So here is a posting of my lunch and my dinner.

Ok so I have a confession, *side note* if you read this mommy oops my bad......I had chocolate cake last night and tonight but I promise myself that was the last time I will ever do it. Sugar is not my friend it leaves such a bad taste in my mouth, yet I crave it. That is one of the worst habits that I have to kick. Phew I feel like a weight was lifted now that I have confessed this and I think that will allow me to be more accountable.

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1st Fit for life Lunch

2010-06-23T15:40:00.002-05:00

I have blog envy, in a good way. I love how most of the blogs I follow have beautiful pictures of food the bloggers have prepared and various other things.

So today I decided to actually follow the fit for life way of eating. They recommend, water when you get up and as much fruit as you like up till 12 p.m. Lunch is carbs and vegetables or protein and veggies (but never proteins and carbs together), and dinner is a protein and vegetables. Its supposed to work better than dieting because its a life style. You can eat what you want on one cheat day but it has to be the same day every week. This is the link to the website..... http://www.diet.com/g/fit-for-life-diet .

So here are my pictures, I like to cook and am always trying new things. I never like my pictures but I took em anyway, hopefully these are good. The meal is Sauteed Butternut Squash, with onion and Zucchini. and a salad made with tomato and cucumber. I just realized when I was on the fit for life link you are not supposed to eat and drink,well its a learning process

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So I had a good food day and I even went swimming with my wonderful kiddos, For my snacks I had an apple, and apricot, and 4 strawberries. I then went on to make fish and veggies for dinner and a small salad as I did for lunch time. I really need to learn to take better pictures, Iol maybe I need a better Camera.

My kids had Macaroni and cheese an grilled tilapia and veggies.

I've got the Funk

2010-04-14T23:36:00.000-05:00

I try my hardest to always be positive but for some reason lately the funk will not leave me alone....mmmm well, so I know that this is temporary but I still got the Funk...The funk keeps following me taunting me, asking me to dare it to leave me alone. I know this for a fact I am tired of the funk, and I want it gone and it better be scared because I can fight dirty.

I have so much to be thankful for besides so much that I do not need to worry about the funk stalking me or mocking me at every turn.
I am thankful for the love of my Heavenly father God,
I am thankful for my parents,grandma,sister
I am thankful for my kids H.O.T
I am thankful for my school, teachers, classmates
I am thankful for my friends(genuine)
I am thankful for my job, coworkers
I am thankful for the team at my apartment complex(I love them)
I am thankful for being alive
I am thankful for music, my life

I have so much to be thankful for no time for the Funk.....:)

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How many times do we miss blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?

2010-04-08T12:09:00.000-05:00

I just read a blog from sparkpeople's popular blog.

An old legend says that at creation, the birds felt cheated and hurt because they received wings. Wings appeared to be burdens which none of the other animals were asked to carry. All was changed, however, when the birds learned that wings were not burdens but blessings that borne them to the sky. Because they were given wings they could rise above the earth and see sights which no other animal could see. What seemed like burdens were really blessings.

Wow I learn new things everyday,and I am reminded of stuff that I already know and yet I am still stuck in this rut. I know that I can fix this and I need to fix this as soon as possible because I am a living example to my kids.

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AWOL ~ here but in recovery mode!!!!!do not reboot.

2010-04-05T03:01:00.005-05:00

So I think I need to take a timeout and just concerntrate on fixing my life, I want to blog daily at least though and maybe make it a habit because I have lots to say but I feel like I have just overloaded my plate to the point that I have lost me, I am neither there or here. I am better than this, I am so judgemental and critical of people and life in general (unspoken yard sticks). The bible calls me to love people and not to judge them, what can I do to make their life easier instead of critisizing them.
Above all that I chastise my peers and people that I love and should respect for the very things I do and say. I wonder how I even see everyone else's transgressions with the big fat log that I have in my eye(both eyes).I have so much growing up to do and I do believe that the time to be grown should have come 7.5yrs ago when my oldest was placed in my arms. I just want to be nuetral like Switzerland.

The relationship that I need to be working on is that of me and my heavenly father because I know that when I am right with him I will be right with everyone. I love all my friends and I hope that my silence and recession into myself will not cause me to lose my pals. I am sick to my stomach with how I view the people all around me and the way i feel and think about situations. Recently I learnt something about myself,(I decided after my break up almost 4yrs ago to be celibate and wait for Mr right),that I am not as solid as I need to be in this decision. Its scary to think that a cute guy showing me attention could make me throw all that out the window for the sake of living life. I know for a fact that I want to affirm my beliefs even further and realise that I am a child of God and I need to try and be more like Jesus, in all ways.

I will continue to live yes, and to live for my kids, to build a relationship with them that is so solid that they can come to me with anything as I can do with my folks. To foster a relationship of love and respect and to bring them up to fear God and respect authority. Its not good that I have been taking my life duties so lightly, sqaundering it taking a nap here and there ,watching telly, jabbering away on the phone for hours about nothing, surfing the net and looking for stuff that is much ado about nothing. I am 30 and each year is the same well something has to give really.

I hope that my blogs will get more interesting and I will keep folks posted on my progress as I embark on this journey of self healing. I have read all the self help stuff out there, looked at so many weight loss success stories, follow so many weight loss blogs its time to put some of the stuff that I have found into practise.

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WHY???

2010-04-03T21:38:00.004-05:00

Why am I not motivated?. I am in such a slump, I am not motivated to pray and do my bible study, I am not motivated to do my school work(even though I can not fail this semester), I am not motivated to clean my house, I am not motivated to exercise. I just feel like I am in this rut, and I need to get out of it. I don't need therapy or any psychiatric help because I already know what the outcome will be and what I will be advised to do. I think I know what the problem is, I lack motivation and I may even be a lil on the lazy side. Ok so the question arises, why am I so lazy, I have absolutely no energy. I really need some energy and I know people say when you exercise you get energy, I never feel that way I just wanna sleep when I exercise.

I have spent so much money on exercise equipment that is taking up a lot of space in my room, 75cm ball, 25cm ball, 3different resistance tubes, a trampoline with resistant tubes, a jump rope (with weights), a pair of 5lb weights, and an ab thing from back in the day. To make matters worse the complex i live in the gym is right by my door....I will post a picture later. So what is my problem really, and lately I have been so forgetful, like if I plan on or decide to do something (unless I write it down) I forget until after the fact. Oh and i have also bought a lot of exercise clothing (very cheap though).

School, I am taking my final 12 credits to get my AAS and I am doing badly in 3 of my 4 classes. You would think that I would be on fire because this is it, but no I am not doing well at all. I really want to do well but i just feel especially this semester that I am NOT good enough. I suck as a student and also lately as an employee. I am doing Hospitality management and I think (I am just realising this as I type), that I have so much self doubt, and wonder how i can be a manager over anyone that I am self sabotaging. Maybe that is why i do not exercise because even though all my sparkies have motivated me I think that I will never look as good or manage to lose the weight. I never realised until now that I do not like myself, or rather who I am. To the world, as a single parent working full time and going to school full time I want to be seen as perfect but I have internal and external turmoil, my home is upside down, my school work is lagging behind and things seem like they are just ready to fall apart.

I do not know why I have been feeling this way lately, but i do know that i feel a lot better that I have gotten it off my chest. I am flawed but I want to do better only because I have 3 precious little angels that will benefit from a positive influence in their life. There is no day off from them so I have to be the best that I can be in order to be there for them even if its not verbal.

This has been therapeutic but I feel like I am just out there exposed ready for the world to judge and dissect me. I do know that I will accept help and criticism well if anyone has any ideas to offer, i know i am so done and I want outta this slump.

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Creating your own POWER MIND means to

2010-03-02T12:33:00.005-06:00

Adapt and adjust to adversity without self destruction and begin to recognize that tough times are actually golden opportunities to learn about life.

Stay mentally mindful and in the present, maintaining a focus on the goal.

Avoid over-thinking, ruminating and complaining and instead become positive and proactive.

Pursue progress, not perfection.

Give yourself a license to chill by gifting yourself with Mini Chills (close your eyes for several minutes or more) of mental rest and peace throughout the day.

Strive to become a master of regrouping when life's challenges threaten to derail your journey of change.

Be self-assertive and fight for the right to take care of yourself.

Gather and nurture your own support system to help guide you on your journey.

Use this template as a map to help guide you on the road to sustainable change. The stronger your power mind, the easier it is to apply new healthy lifestyle behavior changes- nutrition, physical fitness- and make them stick. Start practicing your Power Mind principles today.

God blows my mind with his word.

2010-03-01T17:12:00.000-06:00

Romans 8

1. there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus who do not walk according to the FLESH* but according to the spirit.
6. for those who walk/live according to the flesh set their minds on things of the flesh but those who LIVE according to the SPIRIT* the things of the spirit.

*carnal mind*
So then those in the flesh can not please God.
10. if Christ is in you the body is dead because of sin, but the spirit is life because of righteousness.
18. for I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.
22. We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time.
23. However, not only creation groans. We, who have the Spirit as the first of God's gifts, also groan inwardly. We groan as we eagerly wait for our adoption, the freeing of our bodies from sin.
28. We know that all things work together for good for those who love God,
to those who are called according to his purpose.
31. What then shall we say about these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?
35. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Could oppression, or anguish, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
38. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers,
39. nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing,will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Did they really say that!!!

2010-02-25T19:31:00.001-06:00

It isn't pollution that's harming our environment. Its the impurities in our air and water that's doing it.
Al Gore, Vice President

It's no exaggeration to say that the undecideds could vote one way or another.
George Bush US President

We've got to pause and ask ourself, how much clean air do we need.
Lee Lacocca

(Really) "I was provided with additional input that was radically different from the truth. I assisted in furthering that version.
Colonel Oliver North,(from his Iran Contra Testimony)

WE DON'T NECESSARILY DISCRIMINATE.WE SIMPY EXCLUDE CERTAIN TYPES OF PEOPLE.
Colonel Gerald Wellman, ROTC instructor

If we don't succeed, we run the risk of failure.
Bill Clinton, President

We are ready for an unforeseen event that may or may not occur.
Al Gore Former Vice President

Traditionally, most of Australia's imports come from overseas.
Keppel Enderbery

(hilarious)Your foodstamps will be stopped effective March 1992 because we received notice that you passed away. May God bless you. You may reapply if there is a change in your circumstances.
Department of Social services, Greenville , SC

If somebody has a bad heart, they can plug this jack in at night as they go to bed and it will monitor their heart through out the night. And the next morning when they wake up dead, there'll be a record.
Mark S Fowler, FCC Chairman

Do not have a Critical Spirit (Lakewood Church)

2010-02-25T16:52:00.000-06:00

Mathew 7 v 1

You can train yourself to see the good in people. When we are critical, the other person wont be responsive, people respond to praise. To the pure all things are pure, Titus 1 v 15. I have to trained myself to be cynical and critical.

SO what to do:-

1. Realize that my window is dirty before I go judging other peoples windows. I need to keep my windex handy and keep my windows clean and mind my own business, I must not be nosy. Instead of talking about people I must pray for them, I'd rather be lonely than be poisoned by gossip. Staying away from gossip and people gossiping will not keep me from GOD.

2. Realize that I need to see the good just as I have trained myself to see the bad. (give people the benefit of the doubt). Look and look till you find the best part of someone. If I err I would like to err on the side of mercy.

The enemy is called the accuser of the brethren. When we are critical and judgmental we step out of God's protection.!!!!

Matthew 7 v 5

Look inside yourself and deal with your own issues. The higher you go in life the more haters come out of the wood works. Let God fight your battles for you after all he is bigger than anything that could ever come my way. Do not be a fault finder it can keep you from your DESTINY, keep your heart pure. God will never abandon me, I really need to give as much as I take from him.

The system did him wrong.

2010-02-18T13:33:00.004-06:00

Wow , but did he have to take it this far!!! Somethings gotta give....

http://www.businessinsider.com/joseph-andrew-stacks-insane-manifesto-2010-2

much needed motivation!!!

2010-01-25T02:41:00.001-06:00

DON'T QUIT
by Edgar A. Guest

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
when the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
when the funds are low and the debts are high,
and you want to smile but you have to sigh,
when care is pressing you down a bit - rest if you must,
but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns.
As everyone of us sometimes learns.
And many a fellow turns about when he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow - you may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than it seems to a faint and faltering man;
often the struggler has given up when he might have captured the victor's cup;
and he learned too late when the night came down,
how close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out - the silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
and when you never can tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems afar;
so stick to the fight when you're hardest hit - it's when things seem worst,
you must not quit.

A young wise lady....

2009-08-13T13:04:00.003-05:00

...told me today that feeling sorry for myself will not change my circumstances. I have to change my own circumstances. I am a child of God I am a victor not a victim, I have all the tools including this blog to give myself therapy. I have to have faith and trust in myself that I am the best thing that could ever happen to me and my kids(my life). I have to be the best mommy I can be the best sister, daughter girlfriend and wife(someday) I can be because there is only one me.

Procrastination will be my downfall and anyone else who plans to hold on to it. I vow to not procrastinate anymore and to just do it like NIKEY!! that was my motto before and that is my motto now. So the wise young lady happens to be my baby sis the only one that I have left and she knocked some sense in to me and she did it with her krass no nonsense get up of your butt and do it. Do you know it just occured to me I will be around till God calls me home because even if I wanted to end my own life i would probably procrastinate and not go through it because that is how bad my procrastination is. Maybe that should be the title of this blog. I need to make my blog more colorful and interesting and maybe get some followers because I do have something interesting to say always. Life can kinda de-flower your sense of wonder.

So I am going to try and do things differently and maybe blog through my experience. I am hoping to be able to get a laptop soon that i will hopefully put to good use and do some school work on it as well as blog and youtube because I do have an acc there too. I feel a lot better now after speaking to my baby sis V-fly(who knew, she can be so sweet when she feels like it) my bff and my mom who is not impressed by how I have let myself go. She does not mince her disapproval and she works hard for how great she looks. I dont hate she really is looking great. So I will embark on this journey again and hope to look great on by my 30th birthday when me and my bff go out of town which by the way is a secret plan since the baby sitter my mom (does not know she will be baby sitting) and my dad too,so keep your fingers crossed for me lol...

I feel so much better thank you baby sis for knocking some sense into me...P.S I superglued my flip flop for the third time hope that sucker sticks because it will have to do for now.

Mai H.O.T

Time Management...

2009-07-09T16:13:00.000-05:00

Factors To Include in Your Time Plan - There are some basic factors that all schedules need in order for them to be realistic and effective:

PRIORITIZE. Write down all your tasks. Sort them into three groups: 1's, 2's, and 3's. The 1's are essential: do them first. The lower level priorities can usually wait.
WORK TIME. Decide how much time the task requires, and how much energy. You may wish to include the task's priority level to help make this decision.
RELAX. Regularly plan time to relax and get it together. This time may range in units of 10 minutes to whole days according to your needs. You've earned this time off.
EXERCISE. Exercise is essential for superior academic performance. Your brain would not function well if your body is tired. Stress reduces performance. Workout regularly.
FLEXIBILITY. Allow extra time for UnForeseen Obstacles (UFO's) that are bound to arise. Something almost always comes up to derail your efforts. Allow for it.
FLOATING TASKS. Floating tasks can be done anywhere, anytime. Carry around a book that you need to read, some cards to review, a letter that you need to write.
SURVIVAL. Self-sacrifice and denial are necessary during midterms and finals weeks. Scrap everything that's not absolutely essential for survival.
Compromise - Sometimes drastic change isn't necessary. Learning to compromise can make your life more effective. Try the following suggestions:

RE-PRIORITIZE Change the importance of various tasks. Reconsider the number of hours of work you're willing to spend per week, the number of hours you want with the family, and the number of hours for yourself. Are you trying to do too much?
POSTPONE. Determine the priority of each activity or task and postpone lower level tasks.
DELEGATE. Get someone else to do it. Ask someone to take notes for you while you go to a doctor's appointment. If you're a good writer but a poor typist, hire a typist!
SPEED UP. Sacrifice excellence for expediency. Get it done!
GIVE UP. Drop the activity all together. There is nothing wrong with accepting your limitations and giving up. Strengthen your skills in that area and then try the class again.
DO IT DIFFERENTLY. Look at anything you do and ask, "Is there another way I can do this?" "Why am I doing this job this way?" "Why am I walking in this direction?" "Why is this room arranged this way?" "Is there a place where I seem to work more effectively?" Or, you may wish to subdivide tasks differently. Leave a certain task out. Spread the task out over different lengths of time. Cut back on certain sub-tasks and concentrate on others. Whatever you may choose, doing it differently often helps to do a task more effectively.

God Already Paid the Price

2009-07-02T13:08:00.002-05:00

In a 142 days i leave behind my 20's, wow I have made it this far and God willing for the sake of my kiddos i will make it beyond my birthday. I am God's work in progress so if you encounter me on the roadway and I seem annoyed at your driving skills, just peacebly pass me by because I am a WORK in progress. God is working out the kinks and molding me into the woman he created me to be. He is my father, my Husband, the father of my children he wears so many cloaks and he has covered us with the blood of Jesus the son that he sacrificed to die for us on the Cross. How do I pay him back, with doubt, fear of the unknown and mistrust, I should hope not. I am on this journey and I need to make the most of it or not be here at all. I am re-embarking on this weight loss journey I have sooooooo many tools set before me to help me lose weight. I just have to go ahead and do it I dont have much time between now and 11/20/09. Wish me luck!!!

Day 7ish.....

2009-06-01T22:30:00.001-05:00

I totally dont remember what this post was about wont do that again write a post and not say what its abt lol I think this was supposed to be day 7 of 40day no sugar fast.

Day 4...welcome baby Lox 05/29/09 am

2009-05-29T23:00:00.001-05:00

So today has been a good day,we topped it off by going to the movies....

Day 3....

2009-05-28T23:45:00.000-05:00

Well first and foremost its 11:45pm and I am up and soooooooo sleepy, but I am up doodling...I have not gotten anything done and yet I am still up. I think I know what my hinderances to success are, the biggest one is me, myself and I, 2 Television, 3 phone, Computer (Facebook). Guess my Mommy knows me all too well because she has often times subtly told me these facts about myself. So now that I have finally decided to admit all this I am going to try my best to do better and avoid Hindrances that stunt my growth, especially my Spiritual growth. At the end of the day i am living to live my best life that is pleasing to my Lord and savior, I am living to DIE and go and be with him for eternity. That is as certain as the Taxes we pay biweekly lol...anyway bottom line is this I am still a work of ART in progress so keep watching this space I sure hope to be an inspiration to people out there someday.

Tomorow I will work on being a more productive mom of 3, I will learn to be more patient, I will learn to be more considerate of my kids feelings but I will also learn how to be firm but kind. The more organization and structure that we have in our lives the more we can get done. I am excited at the prospect of looking back on this blog and seeing all the progress I will make. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Day 2

2009-05-27T22:50:00.001-05:00

Not much to report except that I did not achieve all that I hoped to today but in admitting that I am only Human and I will falter from time to time I think that I am making Progress and that is all that counts. Tomorrow will be a better day, and I will be victorious, I have a very good support network, I wish I had the tenacity of my mommy who for as long as I have known her exercises, hopefully it will finally rub off on me.

Day 1 of the rest of my life...

2009-05-26T19:22:00.000-05:00

So my mother and Caro(sister from another mother) and I just finished a 40day stint of staying away from Sugar, save natural sugar that is in fruit. I cheated the first 2 days but after that I stayed on track. They had Cake, Donuts, Cookies, all the Sweet snacks you can think of but I stuck to it and I am glad I did. We are beggining a new journey and adding another member to our crew, for there is strength in numbers.

So today is the official day but we are adding other 40day goals with the hope that they will become a part of our lives. I am a work in progress and I will learn to be kinder to myself and give my self a break. My other 40days is to exercise everyday so I have to be creative we shall see.

live and let live....

2009-04-05T14:53:00.000-05:00

Legend has it there’s a study out there that says 90% of what we worry about never comes to pass. Whether that study is real or not, it’s most likely that this statistic holds in your life. How much of our lives do we miss because we’re agonizing over what might happen down the road? How often do we fail to act – even if it’s the right thing to do – because we fear any number of possible consequences? Fretting over the future doesn’t solve any of those impending problems. It only paralyzes your actions of the present. It stresses you out, makes you mentally and physically tired, and saps all the fun out of what could have been another great day. Next time you start to worry about what might happen, think of this: You can prepare, but you cannot predict. So do what you can, and forget what you cannot.

living a healthy life.

2009-03-13T23:01:00.000-05:00

Health, is not only physical it is also mental and spiritual. To say I am wholely healthy I have to have balance in all these areas of my life. I have to be a strong woman of faith and not fickle in nature. I love that I am a work in progress. There is so much that I am yet to accomplish in this life, so much untapped potential such vavaciousness trying to come out. I tend to put my self worth in the measure that the world Dishes out to me. I am FEARFULY and WONDERFULY made by God so its about time that I act like it. I know that I am destined for greatness its time put away childish things andhandle my business. I feel great and I pray that my path and destiny in life is not too hard to follow and find lol maybe it should be find and follow.

Next!!!!

2009-02-23T21:03:00.000-06:00

Bad days are bound to happen to everyone. You could be having the best week of your life, only to have some calamity smack you right in the forehead. But is this the end-all and be-all? Probably not. If you wake up the next day and the sun has risen, chances are you will be just fine. Work to fix whatever problems you may have encountered, but don’t let them take a central role in your life. Do whatever it takes to resolve the issue and move on. Maybe that means not being too proud to apologize, or maybe even humble enough to accept an apology. You can make it work. Each day is a new opportunity; make as much use of it as you can.

Mai H.O.T's input...
I believe the old addage life is a journey and not a destination. There are so many turns along the way. I really am down on myself a lot yet I am only human and we all make mistakes. I am a work in Progress and I will no longer allow yesterday, last week,last month or last year into today. I am going to live my life with No REGRETS whatsoever. I will not let bad days make me instead I will use them as stepping stones and not stumbling blocks.

Prayer and Fasting (Long but worth it)

2009-02-23T01:56:00.000-06:00

I want to be good at that. i dont know if one can ever be good at that or wether its something we are always learning. I am posting these tips that I found on Campus Crusade to serve as a reminder to myself and as an example to others that may come across my Blog and may want some sort of guidance. The tips on this website have helped me in the past.

STEP 1: Set Your Objective

Why are you fasting? Is it for spiritual renewal, for guidance, for healing, for the resolution of problems, for special grace to handle a difficult situation? Ask the Holy Spirit to clarify His leading and objectives for your prayer fast. This will enable you to pray more specifically and strategically.

Through fasting and prayer we humble ourselves before God so the Holy Spirit will stir our souls, awaken our churches, and heal our land according to 2 Chronicles 7:14. Make this a priority in your fasting.

STEP 2: Make Your Commitment

Pray about the kind of fast you should undertake. Jesus implied that all of His followers should fast (Matthew 6:16-18; 9:14,15) For Him it was a matter of when believers would fast, not if they would do it. Before you fast, decide the following up front:

How long you will fast - one meal, one day, a week, several weeks, forty days (Beginners should start slowly, building up to longer fasts.)
The type of fast God wants you to undertake (such as water only, or water and juices; what kinds of juices you will drink and how often)
What physical or social activities you will restrict
How much time each day you will devote to prayer and God's Word
Making these commitments ahead of time will help you sustain your fast when physical temptations and life's pressures tempt you to abandon it.

STEP 3: Prepare Yourself Spiritually

The very foundation of fasting and prayer is repentance. Unconfessed sin will hinder your prayers. Here are several things you can do to prepare your heart:

Ask God to help you make a comprehensive list of your sins.
Confess every sin that the Holy Spirit calls to your remembrance and accept God's forgiveness (1 John 1:9).
Seek forgiveness from all whom you have offended, and forgive all who have hurt you (Mark 11:25; Luke 11:4; 17:3,4).
Make restitution as the Holy Spirit leads you.
Ask God to fill you with His Holy Spirit according to His command in Ephesians 5:18 and His promise in 1 John 5:14,15.
Surrender your life fully to Jesus Christ as your Lord and Master; refuse to obey your worldly nature (Romans 12:1,2).
Meditate on the attributes of God, His love, sovereignty, power, wisdom, faithfulness, grace, compassion, and others (Psalm 48:9,10; 103:1-8, 11-13).
Begin your time of fasting and prayer with an expectant heart (Hebrews 11:6).
Do not underestimate spiritual opposition. Satan sometimes intensifies the natural battle between body and spirit (Galatians 5:16,17).

STEP 4: Prepare Yourself Physically

Fasting requires reasonable precautions. Consult your physician first, especially if you take prescription medication or have a chronic ailment. Some persons should never fast without professional supervision.

Physical preparation makes the drastic change in your eating routine a little easier so that you can turn your full attention to the Lord in prayer.

Do not rush into your fast.
Prepare your body. Eat smaller meals before starting a fast. Avoid high-fat and sugary foods.
Eat raw fruit and vegetables for two days before starting a fast.

Your time of fasting and prayer has come. You are abstaining from all solid foods and have begun to seek the Lord. Here are some helpful suggestions to consider:

Avoid drugs, even natural herbal drugs and homeopathic remedies. Medication should be withdrawn only with your physician's supervision.
Limit your activity.
Exercise only moderately. Walk one to three miles each day if convenient and comfortable.
Rest as much as your schedule will permit.
Prepare yourself for temporary mental discomforts, such as impatience, crankiness, and anxiety.
Expect some physical discomforts, especially on the second day. You may have fleeting hunger pains, dizziness, or the "blahs." Withdrawal from caffeine and sugar may cause headaches. Physical annoyances may also include weakness, tiredness, or sleeplessness.
The first two or three days are usually the hardest. As you continue to fast, you will likely experience a sense of well-being both physically and spiritually. However, should you feel hunger pains, increase your liquid intake.

STEP 5: Put Yourself on a Schedule

For maximum spiritual benefit, set aside ample time to be alone with the Lord. Listen for His leading. The more time you spend with Him, the more meaningful your fast will be.

Morning

Begin your day in praise and worship.
Read and meditate on God's Word, preferably on your knees.
Invite the Holy Spirit to work in you to will and to do His good pleasure according to Philippians 2:13.
Invite God to use you. Ask Him to show you how to influence your world, your family, your church, your community, your country, and beyond.
Pray for His vision for your life and empowerment to do His will.
Noon

Return to prayer and God's Word.
Take a short prayer walk.
Spend time in intercessory prayer for your community's and nation's leaders, for the world's unreached millions, for your family or special needs.
Evening

Get alone for an unhurried time of "seeking His face."
If others are fasting with you, meet together for prayer.
Avoid television or any other distraction that may dampen your spiritual focus.
When possible, begin and end each day on your knees with your spouse for a brief time of praise and thanksgiving to God. Longer periods of time with our Lord in prayer and study of His Word are often better spent alone.

A dietary routine is vital as well. Dr. Julio C. Ruibal - a nutritionist, pastor, and specialist in fasting and prayer - suggests a daily schedule and list of juices you may find useful and satisfying. Modify this schedule and the drinks you take to suit your circumstances and tastes.

5 a.m. - 8 a.m.

Fruit juices, preferably freshly squeezed or blended and diluted in 50 percent distilled water if the fruit is acid. Apple, pear, grapefruit, papaya, watermelon, or other fruit juices are generally preferred. If you cannot do your own juicing, buy juices without sugar or additives.
10:30 a.m. - noon

Fresh vegetable juice made from lettuce, celery, and carrots in three equal parts.
2:30 p.m. - 4 p.m.

Herb tea with a drop of honey. Avoid black tea or any tea with caffeine.
6 p.m. - 8:30 p.m.

Broth made from boiling potatoes, celery, and carrots with no salt. After boiling about half an hour, pour the water into a container and drink it.
Tips on Juice Fasting
Drinking fruit juice will decrease your hunger pains and give you some natural sugar energy. The taste and lift will motivate and strengthen you to continue.
The best juices are made from fresh watermelon, lemons, grapes, apples, cabbage, beets, carrots, celery, or leafy green vegetables. In cold weather, you may enjoy a warm vegetable broth.
Mix acidic juices (orange and tomato) with water for your stomach's sake.
Avoid caffeinated drinks. And avoid chewing gum or mints, even if your breath is bad. They stimulate digestive action in your stomach.

When your designated time for fasting is finished, you will begin to eat again. But how you break your fast is extremely important for your physical and spiritual well-being.

STEP 6: End Your Fast Gradually

Begin eating gradually. Do not eat solid foods immediately after your fast. Suddenly reintroducing solid food to your stomach and digestive tract will likely have negative, even dangerous, consequences. Try several smaller meals or snacks each day. If you end your fast gradually, the beneficial physical and spiritual effects will result in continued good health.

Here are some suggestions to help you end your fast properly:

Break an extended water fast with fruit such as watermelon.
While continuing to drink fruit or vegetable juices, add the following:
First day: Add a raw salad.
Second day: Add baked or boiled potato, no butter or seasoning.
Third day: Add a steamed vegetable.
Thereafter: Begin to reintroduce your normal diet.
Gradually return to regular eating with several small snacks during the first few days. Start with a little soup and fresh fruit such as watermelon and cantaloupe. Advance to a few tablespoons of solid foods such as raw fruits and vegetables or a raw salad and baked potato.

STEP 7: Expect Results
If you sincerely humble yourself before the Lord, repent, pray, and seek God's face; if you consistently meditate on His Word, you will experience a heightened awareness of His presence (John 14:21). The Lord will give you fresh, new spiritual insights. Your confidence and faith in God will be strengthened. You will feel mentally, spiritually, and physically refreshed. You will see answers to your prayers.

A single fast, however, is not a spiritual cure-all. Just as we need fresh infillings of the Holy Spirit daily, we also need new times of fasting before God. A 24-hour fast each week has been greatly rewarding to many Christians.

It takes time to build your spiritual fasting muscles. If you fail to make it through your first fast, do not be discouraged. You may have tried to fast too long the first time out, or your may need to strengthen your understanding and resolve. As soon as possible, undertake another fast until you do succeed. God will honor you for your faithfulness.

I encourage you to join me in fasting and prayer again and again until we truly experience revival in our homes, our churches, our beloved nation, and throughout the world.

Setting New goals!!

2009-02-22T02:08:00.000-06:00

So we are almost at the end of another month in 2009, very hard to believe and comprehend really. Ok I am a single mom to my 3 beautiful babies and I really feel that I am doing them such a dis service because I dont have a plan, or a schedule at all. I just Bungle through life and I feel that I am teaching this to my kids too. I really have to sit down(maybe not because I do that a lot lol)...I need to come up with a plan so that my kids have some structure at least and they are not tooooo disadvantaged, because already its a crutch that they just have me raising them. I need to CLEAN up my place and keep order, get rid of stuff that I have not touched for a year. I really need to clean up my act. I need to schedule exercise, fix my sleep and waking because it is totally wacked. Make sure we are not late for anything ever. I just realised that the reson that I hate making new yrs res is because I know I wont stick to them. That is so bad and it sucks and so I think that I will write down some resolutions in my food journal/ to do list book and in a month i will check to see my progress.

God has been so good to me and his grace has been sufficient for me but I need to give back to him because he has given me so much.I know that you do not ask for much Lord from me, you have given me the most wonderful task Lord of raising 3 healthy kids....Thank you and I will do the best that I know I am capable of.

Newer Begginings...

2009-02-18T15:26:00.000-06:00

I know I know i know....what i need to do. I did a group at work today on mental health and well being. I feel that for one to be healthy everything has to be good inside and out, mind and body and soul. I have learnt it all i know it all what will it take. I am on fire today though, I am my own limitation, I am standing in my own way and I need to get moving or get out of the way and watch my life pass me by. I love my kids but I do nt love them the way that they should be loved. I am half a parent and i am sick and tired of being half a parent. I pray TO GOD that he continues to have a firm hand on my life out with the riff raff and the mediocraty. I am ready to shine and look forwad to tomorrow. I will not frett or fuss about what has already been and gone because its gone and I have no time in my future for it. I pledge to be the best MOM, worker(at my job) daughter, sister and freind. I want to be irreplaceable in all those areas of my life. God take control. I feel good. I am at school in the library on a reference computer i need to get off i just had to write this down while it was fresh in me.I am on FIRE.

02/13 its Friday

2009-02-13T21:59:00.000-06:00

I had a good day no make that a Greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeat day I have so much to be thankful for I love my life. WHat would I do with out the love of God and God's grace. God is great and if it was not for his grace I am sure I would be in the streets or worse. I cant explain how I am feeling. Happy VALENTINES all love all those in your life completely.

Things have to change ,somethings gotta give

2009-02-05T21:57:00.000-06:00

When problems come up, how do you react? Do you look for blame, or do shoulder what you can and try to repair it? Do you throw up your hands and look for an easier way, or do you learn, adapt and keep pushing? There’s a lot of talk nowadays about ‘personal responsibility’. That’s great. But it’s usually brought up only in finding fault. To show ‘responsibility’ is to own up to your role in the problem’s cause. We don’t often hear about the other side of responsibility – that is, an obligation to be part of the solution. Even when a hardship is not your fault at all, you can – and should – do what you can to fix it. Your skills and abilities create an obligation that only your character can fulfill.

cholecystectomy!!

2009-01-24T14:25:00.000-06:00

01/23/09 I had my gallbladder removed yesterday. This is significant because I had been resistant about having it removed. I started having pain I think in July of 08. I used to have sleepless night from the pain it was horrible and so one night in august i ended up in the E.R and they told me I had gallstones but i did not have and infection so they where not going to do emergency surgery and you know I loved the sound of that I ran out of that E.R lol but I would suffer for many months after that. Well I went to my G.P and she said it would be best to have the gallbladder removed. She refered me to get and ultrasound done so they could be certain that I had gallstones. 5mths later I decided to have it done when it became painful every time I ate whatever I ate. So last week I had the ultrasound done and it was confirmed and I called the surgeon right away met him for the first time on Tuesday morning and Friday he took out my Gallbladder. I am just a lil sore today but I know that I will be OK. I had a burrito and no diarrhea yet so that is good.no pain either.

I want to make a Mark...( on life)

2009-01-06T00:14:00.000-06:00

I am sick and tired of the same old same and just this incessant mediocraty that I have intertwined myself in. I really sometimes feel depressed when I look at my surroundings because I just let things go and I see the confusion on my babies faces because they have seen the other side of life. I want to fix things and I want to be the best MOM in the world to my babies.I have so much more to offer and I need to be a good example for my kids they deserve nothing but the best.

Another thing that is weighing on me is that I hate office gossip it really leaves me with a very bad taste in my mouth. How do I avoid it without being rude to my coworkers that do it. I am all about having a good time and keeping it clean.Lets just say I learnt my lesson, so now I know to keep my distance on certain subjects. I pray that God gives me the strength to do right in all and everything that I do especially when I am being an ambassador out there in the world for him. I want to live life to the fullest and fulfil my purpose here on earth which is to recruit people for the kingdom of God. I really need to have undivided attention, a lot of the chaos in my life right now is because I am not focused and am walking around like a headless chicken.

2009 is the year I am a work in progress and I know that the work will not be completed this yr but the majority will be attempted and accomplished.

Happy blogging (I should be in bed now)

2009-01-03T00:19:00.000-06:00

Sometimes it seems like arguments erupt out of no where. All of a sudden, a full-blown screaming match is taking place, and you’re left wondering where it started. If somebody confronts you in a loud, aggressive manner, it almost seems natural for your attitude to be the same way. But think about what you are trying to accomplish. Maybe you want to be left with hurt feelings and a sore throat. But, the more likely scenario that you are trying to accomplish would probably involve something more along the lines of an agreement, a compromise. So instead of shouting back at the person, take a second, take a few deep breathes, and compose your thoughts. Remain calm, even if the opposing person is unable to accomplish this for him or herself. Talk with an even tone, and pretty soon, you’ll get your message across without having to raise your voice.

Change in the "09"

2009-01-01T23:46:00.000-06:00

Change is inevitable. Change for the better is a full time job! --Adlai Stevenson

I plan to be the best employee there is but I need to get to bed I am going back to work tomorrow after 5 days off OUCH...its gonna be okay though.

"the end"

2008-12-31T00:44:00.000-06:00

Where have I been this year?

What do I want to celebrate about this year?
What do I need to grieve?
What was life givingand energizing to me?
What was life draining or deflating to me?
Where have I seen God at work in my life?
Where have I seen evidence of God's care?

Where am I today?

How would I describe my current relationship with God?
What has my body been telling me about my life and pace?
What are people noticing about me?
What is energizing or exciting to me right now?
What obstacles or challenges are in front of me?
What am I saying to myself about them?
How might God's perspective be different than mine?
What do I sense that God wants to say to me today?

Where do I want to go?

Where to I sense that God is calling me to invest in my life?
What will my life look like if I follow God in this area?
What are the steps I need to take to move forward?
How do I need to relate differently to others in my community?

God is Good

2008-12-30T00:16:00.000-06:00

- Happy moments, praise God.
- Difficult moments, seek God.
- Quiet moments, worship God.
- Painful moments, trust God.
- Every moment, thank God

2008-12-13T01:56:00.000-06:00

2008-11-26T14:17:00.000-06:00

How deep the Father's love for us, how vast beyond all measure

That he should give his only son, to make a wretch his treasure

How great the pain of searing loss, the Father turned his face away

As wounds which mar the chosen one, bring many sons to glory

Behold the man upon a cross, my sin upon his shoulders

Ashamed, I hear my mocking voice call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that held him there until it was accomplished

His dying breath has brought me life; I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything: no gifts, no power, no wisdom

But I will boast in Jesus Christ; his death and resurrection

Why should I gain from his reward? I cannot give an answer

But this I know with all my heart: his wounds have paid my ransom

“Set yourself up for success and anything is possible.”

2008-11-25T09:43:00.000-06:00

I guess this is true because I think that the reverse also works. I believe that I have been setting my self up for failure and I have been succeeding. I have really fallen into bad sleeping and waking up habits. I know that I am going to be late and yet I take in 15more mins which is how far apart the snooze on my alarm is designed by non other than me the 5mins that was there before disturbed my sleep.Point in question what is wrong with me u ponder when you figure it out please help me deal with this. What have I become what have I turned my self into a lazy slob is what. I feel so ashamed at this aspect ,then comes the cleanliness of my house I start with such passion and fire and just stop short of a fully clean place and slowly digress back into the messy abyss that is my current dwelling place. I cant blame it on my kids, though they are partly to blame but maybe I can blame it on my scatter brain because it offers no defense. I havent been doing my devotional and bible study either and studying is a forgotten chore. Paula you have all the tools what is the problem.....L A Z Y is what it is. I do know one thing for sure I cant continue this way because I am setting not only me up for failure but my 3 beautiful angels that the God has entrusted me with. I need to get it together asap because I have so much potential I just have to start tapping into it.

I think that there are so many wonderful qoutes in the world like the one that is my title. i love these qoutes because it helps me to realise that I am not the first to be going through what i am going through others have pondered on the same issues. I aim to rectify and correct the issues that I have and become a well rounded woman that God intends me to be. Ok let me get to it. I promise my self there will be progress before November my month is over.

live a life that is worthy of the calling you have recieved...

2008-11-23T11:15:00.000-06:00

Ephesians 4 is a wonderful guide as to how we are to do this. It calls us to

be completely humble and gentle
be patient (big one for me lately)
make every effort to keep unity
in anger do not sin
do not give the devil a foothold-ever
avoid unwholesome talk, speak only what is helpful to building others
get rid of bitterness, rage, anger, brawling and slander
no malice of any kind
be kind and compassionate to all
put of falsehood/being fake
FORGIVE (this is so necessary for our growth) just as Christ forgave us

I am trying to live by this I think that I have to paste this on a card and put it in my car on the steering wheel so that I can constantly be reminded abt what I need to do to grow and prepare for the kingdom of heaven. I do not want to live a life of mediocraty, I want to live a life that is full and fulfilled and to grow my kids up to be people that will make a difference in society even be it just by their character. The other thing that I take from this chapter is that I have to pick a side and stick to it as in I cant be wishy washy with what I believe in because I am old enough to know what I want. I know what I want I know where I want to be and I know who I want to be. Watch this space.

Its 1:49am

2008-11-23T01:50:00.001-06:00

Why am I still up and whats my problem really. I lack discipline thats what because I really should have been sleeping a looooooooong time ago. I really have to work on this because it can be and is such a downfall to me. I have spent so many hrs on Facebook and for what I am losing focus and I need to Course Correct right away. Wait the fact that I am able to see this means that I am growing. I have to grow because I really dont want to live the way that I had been living in the past I am 29 now I have to grow into my new shell. I need to read my bible everyday have quiet time everyday. I need to do only wholesome things things that will add value to my life. things that will help me be a better woman ,mother ,coworker, member of society, sister, daughter, friend ,lover, DRIVER.

I had fun with my babies last nite we went to the Domain for the tree lighting it was AWESOME crowded but awesome.

New year, new begginings.

2008-11-21T10:10:00.000-06:00

Draw Closer to God

Today's Scripture
“Come close to God, and God will come close to you…” (James 4:8, NLT).

Today's Word from Joel and Victoria

God promises that He will draw close to you when you draw closer to Him. How do we draw closer to Him? Here are a couple of ways:First of all, this verse goes on to say that we must turn away from sin because sin separates us from God. Simply turning to God is the first way to draw closer to Him. Then, the Bible tells us to come into His presence with thanksgiving in our hearts and give Him praise. When you have a thankful heart, you are drawing closer to Him. And the scripture tells us that God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble. When you have a humble heart before Him, you are drawing closer to Him. When you seek Him with your whole heart, you will find Him. He will draw close to you. Seek God today by reading your Bible, praying, meditating on His promises and worshiping Him. With an open heart, you can draw near to God, just as you are, right where you are, and He will fill You with His peace and goodness all the days of your life!

A Prayer for Today
Father in heaven, I choose to draw near to You. I open my heart and repent of anything that displeases You. Fill me with Your power to live the life You have planned for me. I bless Your name today and always. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

the eve of the last day of my 28th

2008-11-19T22:32:00.000-06:00

When I wake up I will be beggining my journey to the big 3-0 I am really excited and I intend to make this the best last 20something birthday I will ever have. God has been so so Good to me and my family and his blessing continue to flow. I am excited excited can you tell I feel so strong at a point when I would be expected to be weak but I am STRONG. I just need to get into the gym.Zvichanaka~~it will be good.

the picture is an update of what my daughters hair looks like now she is lucky short hair suits her and she is happy with the results.

A day in my life..11/16

2008-11-17T02:13:00.000-06:00

Well I work overnight and my parents watch my kids and they normally take them to church but it did not work out that way today. So I took them home and left my oldest incharge when I slept. They had had breakfast and all the food they could want is accessible to them through my oldest. She is a very responsible sis and I trust her to be my eyes and ears. Needless to say I was woken up quite a bit and told this one did that this or the other so much for restful sleep. Anyway so midway through my much sought after sleep my oldest comes in frantic and says that the middle one pictured here took the oldest scissors and chopped away at the hair that has taken us a year to grow. In my drowsy state it did not look back needless to say 4hrs later I nearly had a heart attack as I was assesing the carnage that had befallen my home and all the HAIR on the living room floor. I was so mad but then what wont make the hair grow back. Needless to say its had everyone in our family laughing.

you know I think someone wise once said "if its funny later, its funny when it happens" this is so true if only we applied it to our lives hey. I will be taking her to the barbershop when I get up and pick her up from school. We just have to work on the hair some more hey no biggie. I have to learn to let go and let GOD a lot in my life because I am one woman and I can only do so much. My kids are happy and healthy and that is all that matters.

Happy Blogging.

Some Life Qoutes

2008-11-07T22:35:00.000-06:00

"Life is not about finding yourself, its about creating yourself"

"Failing to Plan is Planning to Fail"

"Pain is Weakness Leaving the Body"

"An eye for eye only ends up making the whole world blind".
M.K. Gandhi

"You can have everything in life that you want if you just give enough other people what they want".
Zig Ziglar

"Great works are performed, not by strength, but by perseverance".
Samuel Johnson

the secret

2008-11-06T22:22:00.000-06:00

I recommend that every one watch this movie or if you have the patience to read read the book it will hopefully change your life. I rewatched it today and I can most certainly say that I am excited and I know that my life is going to change for the better. I keep getting the same message over and over I make my own happiness. If this is the case then I have been doing such a bad job and I ought to fire myself hey. I cant stay long because one of the many things that I have to become consistant at is my bed time I really suck at this. I am growing though and becoming a better woman of God. I want to be the best MOM that I can be. Goodnight all and I hope that tomorrow will be a better day for you all. I have to work on creating a vision board of sorts and get cracking. Anything is possible with the almighty.

Yes He Did!!!

2008-11-05T22:09:00.000-06:00

...and I know the people that voted did too I am so excited for Barack Obama and excited to be witnessing history in the making. I wish that I was able to vote because that would have been awesome. I know for a fact that Barack has opened the way for a future generation and for letting our children know that yes they can and I am sure that now they will. I will be keeping him in my prayers so that he will be a success in the white house and for the nation and the world as a whole. Anything is possible and I know this now I believe this applies to ALL of us of any color ,race ,or nationality. Amazing!!!

No weapon formed against me shall prosper!

2008-11-02T14:32:00.000-06:00

Jesus was in the desert to pray. He'd been fasting. He was alone and probably weak in His body. Along comes Satan to offer Him an easy way out of going to the cross. "You can gain the world by letting me give it to you. Why don't you take the easy way out?" the devil was saying. But Jesus knew that the mission wasn't just to gain the world. He knew that the real victory was to gain the world and defeat temptation, death, hell, and the grave. There was no "easy way out" of that!

Notice how Jesus answered. Each time Satan would tempt Him, Jesus responded by saying, "It is written…" Jesus fought the enemy with the Word of God. The Word of God is your weapon. When you feel the pressure of temptation, when you feel like giving in, when you think you're not going to make it, fight those negative, self-defeating thoughts by declaring the Word of God. Declare, "I am strong in the Lord and in the power of His might! No weapon formed against me shall prosper. I am an overcomer through Christ who strengthens me." Speak the Word, and allow Him to lead you on the path of victory!

These are some strong and powerful words and I need to follow them and live by them. Alone I cant do anything but with the Trinity I am a conquerer. I give it all to God today because it is all his everything and he is bigger than everything and anything that we could ever be faced with. We just have to know this and trust that he has our back I know he has my back.

Saturday Blues

2008-11-02T04:52:00.000-06:00

Ok so I have a new bad habit sleeping in on a Saturday morning and its bad because i sleep till 11am by which time my kids are up and about being baby sat by the trusty T.V...I know I know bad mother but really I am not. Friday nite before I went to sleep I set some goals and I achieved most of them and that is good enough. I do the best that I can and i will not beat myself up for failing here and there. I think that, sometimes that is all we can do because we are only human and when we set high unrealistic expectations then when we fail we put ourselves in a deep dark hole that we can not climb out of. So today I am ok that I did not achieve all that I set out to do at least I achieved something hey. God is so good and i am lucky to have my family they are awesome people. I can be anything I put my heart and soul into.

2008-10-31T22:31:00.000-05:00

This is how I look today

I am happy am finally happy like when I look at pictures because I did lose 25lbs and I have to give myself a pat on my back. Yes I could have handled it better and I could have lost a lot more but trust me if you know me then you know that this is stellar. Well tomorrow is 11/01/08 and that is my new year because well for me November is my birthday month so I take very seriously what goes on in this month. I have decided to stop being my own obstacle. I am Lazy because like I said I could have done so much better lost so much weight. My kids are lil mini me's and I feel that I have so much to teach them and I feel that I have been of diservice to them. I know everyone says that I am doing a good job but i know that I could be doing a much much much better job. I need to have them involved in so much more. I need to be getting them prepared for school and their future. I am always willing to learn and if anyone comes across this blog of mine if you have any ideas on how I can raise three brilliant kids that would be need i have 2 girls and the youngest is my son. I will be all that God intended me to be all I know is that it is never too late.

The picture above was taken at the movies $1.50 cool hey I mean the movies cost that much and not even old movie or movies that are that old. We watched the movie The Women with my mom and a close friend (who feels like family Auntie Winnie) who happens to be an author too, she wrote a book that recently just came out "The print of his hand". Anyway we watched that movie and it opened my eyes to a lot of things and I feel fired up and ready to go I will be updating my progress on this blog as often as i can that I guess is also one of my many resolutions. Oh I am a facebook jumkie but 3weeks ago I had my mom change my password and keep it from me until November 20th well I have been good but I have been on my baby sis's and I think that is cheating and I think I need to stop that.

Finally in the last 7days I have had a partial tooth Eruption removed and then I had one wisdom tooth and a regular molar removed too. Not fun but its better no more stank Breath and no more PAIN hallelujah and what is it with Austin Docs prescribing Vicodan its messed up really messed up.

Randy Pausch "a man I never met with a story I will never forget"

2008-10-24T17:16:00.000-05:00

He calls us to
-Dream BIG
-Be GRATEFUL
-Have HUMOR
-USE YOUR TIME WELL

he insists that Blogging is a must so here I am Blogging away hoping to someday leave a legacy as he did I hope to be able to buy his book some day.

he also said and this is my fav " Be flexible! for Blessed are the flexible for they shall never be bent out of shape"

I feel so bad for his family because he was such an awesome professer husband to his wife and father to his children. I fell inlove with his spirit just from watching a tv documentary that they had on him. I found myself as I always do wondering why am I such an ungrateful brat I have so much to be thankful for and I can do anything I put my heart and mind to. I am my biggest obstacle. I have so much that I can do and achieve if I just put my all in it and realise that God is bigger than anything or anyone that could stand in my way.

I believe!!

2008-10-14T10:32:00.001-05:00

God is who He says He is
God can do what He says He can do
I am who God says I am
I can do all things through Christ
God's word is alive and active in me.

Procra!!!- What

2008-10-13T23:08:00.000-05:00

That does not make it ok that I procrastinate (because the world is full of procrastinators) I have so much to look forwad to in life and I think that I waste a lot of time not doing things when they should be done. I have sooooooooo many to do lists and it seemingly is getting out of hand now especially because I dont do much of anything on those lists. I am constantly writing things down over and over and I think that it's time for action now. You would think since I have my own lil platoon (h.o.t) my kids I would some well organised soccer mom but I am not. instead my babies are missing out on a lot of things because mommy is so disorganised.

I want to do so much better especially for my kids and the career path that I am taking because procrastination hasn"t gotten me anywhere so far. I need to start stuff and finish it because that there is another major ailment that I have. I got this from a fellow but now former procrastinator....

-When in doubt, act.

-Erase your To-Do List every day or week and start over. Running lists end up with items that stick around too long, sink to the bottom and end up as invisible as Lincoln’s ghost.

-Hang around action-oriented people. People with energy often have a thrill for life, and it’s easy to pick up some of that spirit.

-Get plenty of exercise and sleep. Nothing makes you want to put things off more than feeling groggy or drained.

-Filter down and simplify. Does everything on your To-Do List belong there? As lists get longer, we procrastinators can freeze up and not know which way to turn first.

-Right now go do something you put off earlier today…There, doesn’t that feel better? Remember and cherish that feeling.

Watch this space for many many changes to come.

2008-10-10T05:26:00.000-05:00

New and Old...

I am happy to say that I am kinda succeeding in some areas of my life. This week I have managed to get my kids on some sort of schedule its definately a work in progress. I am blessed with almost perfect kids...loving and caring they always know when I need a hug and a kiss and that random i love you...mommy what would i be without them. I am addicted to facebook and i need to stop that coz it divides my attention so...I have so many books to read so i will try and be awol from facebook till November 20th on my bday. i want to blog more i guess that was one of my newyears resolutions so by now i should have like 200 blog messages well i guess there aint no time like the present.I have reconnected with old pals that have become new pals i just wish they could be closer because its hard when they are so far. the saying we meet to part and we part to meet is so so tru. Good talking to Tsi2 and Ruth N. I went to the gym and i must say i am happy with myself for that i need to keep it up to lose at least 20lbs by Nov 20th.

God is so good to me and my babies and he continues to bless us. I will lift my eyes to the Lord where my help comes from.

2008-10-05T03:14:00.000-05:00

I had my bathroom moment today i think that i have heard these before but today's was profound in that i do not want to keep living my life this way. I have 3 kids that need my mental health to be healthy, I want to set a good example to my kids. The whole i cant get out of bed on sat mornings kinda got old and its time for a change. a change in how i do things, carry on my day and treat my precious God given angels. I am my own OBSTACLE I determine how my life will go and I chose to be the best person God wants me to be or not. I need to stop procrastinating and start acting. I can do some much but the more i sit back and be lazy the less my potential can be tapped into. Thank you Lord for this life i am living I sure hope I stop living it in vain and start living it with Purpose so that when i see God he will say well done good and Faithful one.

2008-08-04T02:01:00.000-05:00

Going AWOL.....

is harder than I think it is Facebook is so addictive some people in the uk said Facebook is the new crack we just gotta have it.Well today my mom told me something poignant ,something our Pastor at GT Austin preached about....which is being Passionate about God and the Things of God. I was forced to face the fact that I am not as passionate as I would like to be or as I should be. Its so much easier to spend all my free time on facebook than for me to do my devotional or to make sure that I do not miss my Favourite show on telly because I dont have DVR and I know that they will not be repeating it so I have to watch it and when I get the Pangs of saying oh I really should my bible I chose instead to say i will definately do it tomorrow when I wake up. This has been going on for too long and frankly I am ready for a change.I want to change the way I live my life, the way I am raising my precious lil angels, the way I study, my relationship with God ,family,friends,coworkers the fellow drivers around me that have felt my wrath and fury (road rage...I have a mild case of this...I simply just get irritated by austin drivers no gestures or honking of my horn just irritation and frustration.)I am Lukewarm when it comes to my walk with Christ and am on the fence yet i know that he is the one that gives me life and the ability to be here. I know that I am living with one purpose to die and go to spend eternity with my father in heaven I just hope when he greets me he will day Well Done My Good and Faithful Servant

2008-07-27T01:33:00.000-05:00

The best thing to give to your enemy is forgiveness; to an opponent, tolerance; to a friend, your heart; to your child,a good example; to a father, deference; to your mother, conduct that will make her proud of you; to yourself, respect; to all men, charity.-- Benjamin Franklin

I got this Quote of a Friend's face book Quotes and I love it I pray that I have more forgiveness,tolerance, I am a good example to my kids, deference to my dad,conduct that will make my mama proud (though i know she is proud of me no matter what),respect for everyone and a charitable heart. These things I pray for.

I will try and blog more often...yesterday my world was rocked by hearing that Professor Randy Pausch passed away my prayers go out to his wife and beautiful kids may they always hold him dear to their hearts because he was a special Man. R.I.P Mr Pausch

2008-07-20T00:39:00.000-05:00

Thankfulness

I have so much to be thankful for in this life , my kids, my mom,my dad and my baby sis, my good friends few as they might be. I love them all. I know that I have so much to change and fix inorder for me to function well in life and in society. I really need to have my babies on a schedule like yesterday....Hallo!!! its ridiculous how we just get by. I am very excited about school and actually working towards a degree. I pray that you may guide me father God.

I really need to do better in terms of my weightloss plans I have all the tools I just have to put the plan into action and stick to it. I know that I can do it so what is holding me back why am I afraid to face it. I am tired of being fat and I am ready to embrace the woman that I should be.

More blogging later I think I am experiencing writers block if there is ever such a thing.

2008-07-18T22:46:00.000-05:00

Psalm 23
A psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, [a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

I want to know God more I want to trust him for everything in my life ,I want to be filled with him ,I need him to empty me of me so I can be filled with him.I am searching in all the wrong places and I need to fix this aspect of my life. I am moving around like a headless chicken and yet I have so much to be thankful for and God has ocherstrated it all. I am going through some struggles right now and my flesh and my spirit are really at loggerheads. Chris Sligh said it in the song "empty me".....Oh how i need to be emptied. I am thankful for my kids and my family. I am coming to you for guidance Lord ,guidance for enriching our relationship, for school,raising the kids and life weight loss everything Lord. I love my life for the most part but I think that when God gave me reign of my life I feeled the chambers of my heart with ugliness and I want to see that gone.

We went to the movies I guess 5yrs later I am trying to keep up with my sisters tradition of watching movies the day they came out just me and my kids, I really treasure the moments we have but I want to do more for them.

2008-07-13T02:06:00.001-05:00

Empty Me-Chris Sligh

I've had just enough of the spotlight when it burns bright
To see how it gets in the blood.
And I've tasted my share of the sweet life and the wild ride And found a little is not quite enough. I know how I can stray And how fast my heart could change.
Empty me of the selfishness inside Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride And any foolish thing my heart holds to Lord empty me of me so I can be filled with you. I've seen just enough of the quick buys of the best lies To know how prodigals can be drawn away. I know how I can stray And how fast my heart could change. Empty me of the selfishness inside Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride And any foolish thing my heart holds to Lord empty me of me so I can be filled with you. Cause everything is a lesser thing Compared to you, compared to you. Cause everything is a lesser thing compared to you. So, I surrender all! Empty me of the selfishness inside Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride Empty me of the selfishness inside Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride And any foolish thing my heart holds to Lord empty me of me so I can be Lord empty me of me so I can be filled with you. Oh, filled with you. Empty me.

2007-12-19T14:44:00.000-06:00

ChAnGeS

I am such a procrastinator why doI do so I am so lazy too have to change because I am a mom of three a single mommy at that so that means I have to cHaNgE my ways really. I am so lost and I really need to get up on my feet and practise self discipline and a great deal of self control. i am not a good friend because I tend to set really high standards that I do not even adhere to. I think that I need to take the next year to get to love me, know me ,love me ,want me and appreciate me as much as I can i also need to love my kids and develope an unbreakable ,unshakeable relationship. I have to become miss right for my mr right and learn to love and let live. I dont want to be judgemental of people and cautious I want to have prudence and love for ALL people. I need God to guide my path, I need you father to help me to become the best that you want me to be. I need guidance to be focused and to remain focused to read the word daily and to love life.

I am a conqurer

2007-10-14T01:07:00.000-05:00

I have so much growing up to do I am completely far off from where I really need to be and I know what I need to do inorder to get there my kids are my driving force. I have to be the best mom that I can be forget about everything I have done as of before 1:11am 10/14/2007 and just do right by myself and my bebes. I am living for God but I act like I am living for me most of the time I dont like being ugly like I did today I wanna learn to and Forgive and move on just let the little things go . I want to be a success and to leave a mark on the World for the better good. With GOD all things are possible and I can do all things through him.......I plan to do the best and be the best and live the best way that I can.

2005-11-04T12:30:00.000-06:00

I have been through more than I ever expected to go through at this point in my life but they say God never gives you more than you can handle I guess I just feel like I am in need of a break I do have faith that things will get better for me in the long run because things cant always be hard you know am most worried about my kids but part of having faith is so that we don't have to worry "faith is believing in things unseen that are hoped for"so I guess I will just have to continue to have faith in my Lord and Saviour knowing that he has a brighter day coming for me actually I feel it in my spirit and I know that it will only be up from here on out. I am glad that I have been receiving the lessons of life the ay I have because then if I did not I would never have learnt to accept any of the simple things of life.I want the best for my family and even for their dad whatever you have in store for all of us, a lot in life is about letting go and letting Gods will be done so put me in the path of you will and I promise you that I will do it. I know that there is a bigger price in life than what my heart my heart may feel is necessary at this point in time.I want us to be a family but maybe you have other plans Lord and those are the plans that I want to follow not my own desires. You will never put me on path that leads me to destruction but if I decide to keep the reigns on my life I am sure I will end up on that road on my very own. You love me and you have never forsaken me and I love that Father.Please guide me and show me the way that you would have me take I want to make it for you and my babies.As for my immediate family I know that in the not too distant future I will be in their good graces again I am sure you can help me fix that one too.I want to be a good mom Lord please bring back the gentle nature I know is buried in me right now.I want to feel alive and love for my babies Lord I don't like speaking to them in harsh tones please if anything that is the most important thing I want to fix, for they are my life and I love them Lord and I only want to raise them up right and not mess them up.I hope that I have been thrown my last curve ball of life because I think I am at a stage where I appreciate all the things that I have in my life.this is me signing of until the next time I feel driven to BLOG on.

2005-10-01T14:19:00.000-05:00

I guess I might as well catch up with the rest of the century and start up my own blog .........Oh my Gosh I have had so much happen to me but I trust my Lord and Saviour will see me through all this.I have to be strong and hold my head up high for my 3 beautiful children. It can only get better from now on.